I’m a total homer when it comes to my sports teams. It’s one of my favorite things about living in a major metropolitan city. The energy on game day is contagious. Especially when your team has a shot. When they struggle, I struggle with them. But it doesn’t come without second-guessing and name calling. It’s sports. To me it’s the ultimate reality show where you never know how it’s going to end.
This season is shaping up to be a strange one for me. Baseball is currently on strike. Today is actually another deadline and even if they come to an agreement the season has been tarnished. There’s a disappointing cloud hovering overhead. Moving to football, the Seahawks have been my main team for the past ten years or so. Sure I have a few others I cheer for, but they’re basically my fallback plan. I learned today that star QB Russell Wilson has been traded to the Broncos and pending a physical and his agreeing to go to Denver, it’s a done deal.
I’m better equipped to handle these scenarios at this stage in life. If I were a kid I’d be devastated. Inconsolable. But as an adult I’m finding this oddly empowering.
This is an area of my life that I struggle with. Making decisions solely based on their business merit with all the emotion removed isn’t my strong suit. I care too much what others think and above all, I care about how my decisions affect coworkers and the people I love. Hell, I’ve actually been afraid to create opportunities for that reason alone. In this case, I’m loyal to a fault.
This is wrong. I know that. It’s really, really bad. In fact, I’d be willing to bet that the universe is trying to teach me a lesson. The lesson of being true to yourself. Finally.
Even though I’ve had the same amazing job for almost 30 years, I’m not afraid of change. On the surface I know how it looks though. To be honest, I’ve never really had a solid opportunity present itself. But I blame myself for that. I really haven’t gone out looking for one because of my concern for others. I do regret not opening myself up to new opportunities in the past. I kick my own ass on a nightly basis for not doing so. But there’s no going back in time. I’m here right now, so what do I do?
Here’s what I’ve decided. First it starts with reassuring myself that I’m a good guy. I always have been. Taking control of my own destiny shouldn’t change that. Creating opportunities doesn’t mean you have to accept them either. However there’s power when you have options. I have to give myself credit for being one of the best in my business. It’s not luck. I have always downplayed my success because the other option is ugly to me. It’s gross. But today I finally see that there’s a sweet spot between being humble and obnoxiously confident. That’s where I need to land.
We don’t know what the future holds. Life can change in an instant. To be beholden to others in the decision making process isn’t healthy. My wife Shari has lectured me before about this saying, “Do you think any of these people will be there for you in your time of need? They would jump on a great opportunity at the drop of a hat.” Although I don’t like looking at it like this, it’s true.
This is a contract year for the Lex and Terry show. Every four years we go though this. We are making money for our syndication company and we have great ratings so I don’t see why we won’t be offered another contract. Which I’ll be grateful for. I still love the job and I’m ready for a least one more contract. But … while that’s going on, I will be creating new and exciting opportunities. I feel that I’m just now getting good at this shit and it’s time to bring some on my ideas to life.
I realize now more than ever that it’s MY time. I’ve worked hard for this. I’ve improved as a host and as a person every year. I now officially open up my heart to the universe. Let’s create some magic.